Our Gonzalez Family: My Story

Jan 17, 2008

My Story

This story is really important to me. It reminds me of Gods grace and mercy and especially what HE did on the cross.

The beginning of this story starts when I was a child. My mother brought us up in the religion of Catholicism. I was baptized as a baby and attended mass on Sundays. At the age a child attends catechism my brother and I were there. When we read the new testament I realized that the religion was contradicting the bible. I started asking the church for answers, but none were given. The next year my mother enrolled me into a catholic school for seventh grade. This was the first and last year I attended a private school due my failing history, but I did attain some knowledge and get answers to some of my questions. Due to the imbalance of information and direction I continued on in confusion and frustration. Most of the time rejecting my conscience and justifying my behavior. I was taught by the church that I could go to a priest and get my sins taken away by saying hail Marys and our fathers. I learned I could just sin and go get them taken away when I wanted. Now I know how wrong they were. The Lord is the one who takes away sins and is the only mediator between God and man. But in the ignorance of my youth I led a sinful, go with what makes you feel good, life. I still prayed and sometimes I would realize all the bad stuff I was doing and go through spells depression. I turned to self medicating with alcohol and marijuana. At the age twenty two I owned a brand new four bedroom house, a nice car, the perfect dog, and I was making tons of money. To anyone on the outside I had it made. I partied hard and slept hard. I couldn't ask for anything more, so I thought. I started to feel terribly wrong in the inside. Every thing seemed like dust in the wind and every day became like nails on the chalk board. I found myself praying more intensely one night. I was led to the decision to get my life right with God. I starting attending this church around the corner from my house. It was a different religion from the one I was raise in so I thought it would be a start. I started to learn about God all over again. Now with a fresh perspective of urgency. I was desperate for God. I prayed and through the reading and learning of Gods words My questions were getting answered. I also found out its not about a religion or the church you attend its about your personal relationship with God. Better yet The Father, Son and Holy Spirit. From that point on my life was transformed. I repented and asked for forgiveness. This time I tried to stop sinning. The Holy Spirit would guide me through what I read in scripture and I would catch myself when I went against it. I would pray for God to help me not do it again. I had a spiritual warfare in my house. Sometimes I would be washing dishes and just fall to my knees with sorrow because I wanted to sin, but I didn't really want to sin. I knew inside God didn't want me to live the way I was. I felt like I was going crazy. I was abused from the age five till I was fourteen. I lived so long with lustful sin and drugs. My whole lifestyle and being able to function differently had to all come from God. It's natural for a person who was so use to living wrong to be changed to living right to fight against it. I did find out that submitting and humbling myself to what He wanted made it so much easier.
The most important thing for my life was He was changing my heart. I was always able to forgive, but I was still hurt. He took my pain, He changed the way I thought, He gave me new desires and in His timing He fulfilled them. I'm still growing and changing. He's still doing these things for me. Its something that is going to continue till I die. He asks us to evaluate ourselves daily. I don't think he want us to be stagnate. He wouldn't be-able to use us or make us better. That's why I think it will happen until he takes me, He wants us to continue after Him and be strong in our faith no matter what. Just like Jesus. Now, He had a relationship with His Father. I would love to have one similar.

So, I'm compelled by God to keep in faith and continue to strive for the better of His Kingdom, not the devils.

That's about it. I pray to follow the bible, I pray, we go to our church for fellowship ( a prayerfully sought out church ), we involve ourselves with others we are equally yoked with so we can encourage each other in the Lord, and we don't involve ourselves with activities that aren't pleasing to God.

We aren't legalistic about what we do we are led from with in to do these things. As we continue to be regenerated by the reading of His word, it becomes natural.

I truly pray for this to be a blessing in your life. It has been nice writing it and remembering what I'm saved from. Thank you for your friendship. Bridgette

Running out of time.

And Jesus came and spoke to them, saying, "All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age." Amen. (Matthew 28:18-20) The Great Commission - Its Significance for Christians The Great Commission is the end of a Gospel and the beginning of faith in action for all Christians. This command from Jesus is significant because it's a personal instruction for Christians to have a profound faith in Jesus Christ as indicated in verse 18. "All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth." This is an incredibly powerful statement which demands faith in Jesus Christ, validating His power in the lives of Christians and their commitment to Him. This verse acts as a clear claim to Christ's omnipotence, and therefore His deity. If Christians do not believe this statement, complete faith does not exist. Jesus is very clear about His authority in the world -- it is complete and total from the beginning of time itself (John 1:1-3).

Revelation

Revelation 19;11-21 11. And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him [was] called Faithful and True, and in righteousness he doth judge and make war. 12. His eyes [were] as a flame of fire, and on his head [were] many crowns; and he had a name written, that no man knew, but he himself. 13. And he [was] clothed with a vesture dipped in blood: and his name is called The Word of God. 14. And the armies [which were] in heaven followed him upon white horses, clothed in fine linen, white and clean. 15. And out of his mouth goeth a sharp sword, that with it he should smite the nations: and he shall rule them with a rod of iron: and he treadeth the winepress of the fierceness and wrath of Almighty God. 16. And he hath on [his] vesture and on his thigh a name written, King Of Kings, And Lord Of Lords. 17. And I saw an angel standing in the sun; and he cried with a loud voice, saying to all the fowls that fly in the midst of heaven, Come and gather yourselves together unto the supper of the great God; 18. That ye may eat the flesh of kings, and the flesh of captains, and the flesh of mighty men, and the flesh of horses, and of them that sit on them, and the flesh of all [men, both] free and bond, both small and great. 19. And I saw the beast, and the kings of the earth, and their armies, gathered together to make war against him that sat on the horse, and against his army. 20. And the beast was taken, and with him the false prophet that wrought miracles before him, with which he deceived them that had received the mark of the beast, and them that worshipped his image. These both were cast alive into a lake of fire burning with brimstone. 21. And the remnant were slain with the sword of him that sat upon the horse, which [sword] proceeded out of his mouth: and all the fowls were filled with their flesh.Revelation 20 1. And I saw an angel come down from heaven, having the key of the bottomless pit and a great chain in his hand. 2. And he laid hold on the dragon, that old serpent, which is the Devil, and Satan, and bound him a thousand years, 3. And cast him into the bottomless pit, and shut him up, and set a seal upon him, that he should deceive the nations no more, till the thousand years should be fulfilled: and after that he must be loosed a little season. 4. And I saw thrones, and they sat upon them, and judgment was given unto them: and [I saw] the souls of them that were beheaded for the witness of Jesus, and for the word of God, and which had not worshipped the beast, neither his image, neither had received [his] mark upon their foreheads, or in their hands; and they lived and reigned with Christ a thousand years. 5. But the rest of the dead lived not again until the thousand years were finished. This [is] the first resurrection. 6. Blessed and holy [is] he that hath part in the first resurrection: on such the second death hath no power, but they shall be priests of God and of Christ, and shall reign with him a thousand years. 7. And when the thousand years are expired, Satan shall be loosed out of his prison, 8. And shall go out to deceive the nations which are in the four quarters of the earth, Gog and Magog, to gather them together to battle: the number of whom [is] as the sand of the sea. 9. And they went up on the breadth of the earth, and compassed the camp of the saints about, and the beloved city: and fire came down from God out of heaven, and devoured them. 10. And the devil that deceived them was cast into the lake of fire and brimstone, where the beast and the false prophet [are], and shall be tormented day and night for ever and ever. 11. And I saw a great white throne, and him that sat on it, from whose face the earth and the heaven fled away; and there was found no place for them. 12. And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is [the book] of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works. 13. And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works. 14. And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death. 15. And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.

Armor of God

Christian MySpace Graphics Ephesians 6:10-20 10. Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. 11. Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places]. 13. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 14. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 15. And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16. Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. 17. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: 18. Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; 19. And for me, that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel, 20. For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.

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